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Spider Karma

by Laughing Animal

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1.
Sadie 03:26
Very first memory You’re my very first memory You’re my very first memory You’re my very first memory Wait, I can’t wait No, I can’t take my time I'm too impatient I can’t hate So much love up in my mind Feel it vibrating I can’t wake I am stuck in this nightmare, no there’s no waking I can take anything that I might like but I won’t take it I keep finding everyday there’s something else that’s going wrong I can’t find a way to make it right, don’t know what’s going on I can’t shake the feeling everyone I love soon will be gone I know sometimes I’m not right, but not too often that I’m wrong I wish you could have lived forever Doesn’t make sense, but I wish we were together (can’t be no other way) Everything dies, yeah that’s just the way the game goes (can’t be no other way) When it’s my time will I find you at the rainbow? (no) I keep finding everyday there’s something else that’s going wrong I can’t find a way to make it right, don’t know what’s going on I can’t shake the feeling everyone I love soon will be gone I know sometimes I’m not right, but not too often that I’m wrong She came and went just like a stray Always was meant to pass away When we move through time our lives are always fading Not complaining Wait, I can’t wait No, I can’t take my time I'm too impatient I can’t hate So much love up in my mind Feel it vibrating I can’t wake I am stuck in this nightmare, no there’s no waking I can take anything that I might like but I won’t take it I can’t wait No, I can’t take my time I'm too impatient I can’t hate So much love up in my mind Feel it vibrating I can’t wake I am stuck in this nightmare, no there’s no waking I can take anything that I might like but I won’t take it I keep finding everyday there’s something else that’s going wrong I can’t find a way to make it right, don’t know what’s going on I can’t shake the feeling everyone I love soon will be gone I know sometimes I’m not right, but not too often that I’m wrong I keep finding everyday there’s something else that’s going wrong I can’t find a way to make it right, don’t know what’s going on I can’t shake the feeling everyone I love soon will be gone I know sometimes I’m not right, but not too often that I’m wrong
2.
Cold Subject 03:40
I woke up Afraid of my thoughts Been thinking bad things a lot Like ghosts they always haunt Like ghosts they live in the dark Now I can’t make my thoughts go away I don’t need to, they will change anyway I don’t have to fucking do anything All I have to do is make it through the day Getting closer to the place I will be I don’t want to rush because I know there’s no need I don’t want to go, no I don’t want to leave I just want to stay here, I just want to breathe Now my head Is once again caught up in a mess I feel hopeless, feel like my life’s a wreck Feeling frustrated and upset I want to end it now but I’m Getting closer to the place I will be I don’t want to rush because I know there’s no need I don’t want to go, no I don’t want to leave I just want to stay here in my body I’m falling down I’m letting go I’m done feeling hopeless, baby I’m touching down I’m coming home I know nothing can save me When I feel I’m at the end I just think about a friend Type a message and hit send No this will not last forever I know we can’t start again Now is now and that was then Always have a hand to lend Know that offer stands forever Always trying to let go Always dying every moment Life’s a beauty to behold Give me a chance, I’ll try to show it If you ever feel alone I’m the same, want you to know it You’re a part of what makes home Let me know, I’ll help you go through it Now I can’t make my thoughts go away I don’t need to, they will change anyway I don’t have to fucking do anything All I have to do is make it through the day Getting closer to the place I will be I don’t want to rush because I know there’s no need I don’t want to go, no I don’t want to leave I just want to stay here, I just want to breathe When I feel I’m at the end I just think about a friend Type a message and hit send No this will not last forever I know we can’t start again Now is now and that was then Always have a hand to lend Know that offer stands forever Always trying to let go Always dying every moment Life’s a beauty to behold Give me a chance, I’ll try to show it If you ever feel alone I’m the same, want you to know it You’re a part of what makes home Let me know, I’ll help you go through it
3.
Lately Life 03:29
Ten too many hits I’m done doing acid Take me off the guest list I’m just trying to get rich I no longer have the itch My life is so psychedelic If I found truth I would tell it I wanted proof but I fell in I’ve been paying debts trying to win that zero balance Life is not a game but I am still down for the challenge I let go of sadness but keep close my bad habits Hold on to my vision I’m the only one who has it I reached out to grab it Instead went on a bad trip I’m so positive I attract it like a magnet I got love to give but now no one’s trying to have it I built up a solid life right before I trashed it You’re the only one All I wanna do is make you feel something Lately life hasn’t been too fun But I guess it’s still better than nothing I’ve been waiting for the sunlight to come out Darkness all the time is not what I’m about Working on removing doubt This music in my head’s so loud Trying hard to turn it down so my ideas don’t have to shout Low and feeling lost But wasn’t lost I know Not feeling love But I’m the cause I know I gotta go I gotta get out of this phase I tried to float to cheat my way out of this maze You’re the only one All I wanna do is make you feel something Lately life hasn’t been too fun But I guess it’s still better than nothing I need to find some new interests (I’m not myself, I’m not my best) Don’t need to fail another test (I can’t see straight, I need to rest) My heart might burst right through my chest (I feel some pressure in my head) Don’t think I have too much time left I want to pick you up I want to take you some place Don’t want to end my life Just want to make things right But I’m not feeling well No, I am really in a bad place Only time will tell If I will make it out You’re the only one All I wanna do is make you feel something Lately life hasn’t been too fun But I guess it’s still better than nothing I’m the only one Who can straight up just make you feel nothing Lately life hasn’t been too fun But I’m still trying to turn it into something I need to find some new interests (I’m not myself, I’m not my best) Don’t need to fail another test (I can’t see straight, I need to rest) My heart might burst right through my chest (I feel some pressure in my head) Don’t think I have too much time le-
4.
Used to feel like something Only feeling old now Do not think it matters I don’t need to know how Don’t need to remember How painful my back was I can see the future I’m not going backwards Used to feel imbalanced Hoped I could go somewhere else Wanted to burn it Caught up in the despair Then I finally learned it Don’t need to go nowhere Only seeking balance I just need to breathe air And love myself Really I’m the only one I need to know I hate myself Sometimes but only when I’m feeling low I work on that Don’t need no shade, I only want to glow I’ll live through that At least I hope but maybe I won’t It’s easier said than done When bad times come along It’s hard to know they’ll be gone Nothing lasts - could be wrong We can’t escape from time All feelings will subside But some things never die The truth lives in your eyes You know I cannot hide These feelings kept inside I want to get them out my mind You know I could die Used to feel imbalanced Hoped I could go somewhere else Wanted to burn it Caught up in the despair Then I finally learned it Don’t need to go nowhere Only seeking balance I just need to breathe air I think I have done most my crying Truth is easier than lying Now is not the time to be quiet I don’t give a fuck about dying I just want to keep on breathing I don’t need a god to believe in Maybe we are only dreaming Maybe we are already gone We can’t escape from time All feelings will subside But some things never die The truth lives in your eyes
5.
Just one moment at a time I got things in my mind Spent the last five years inside Like I’ve got things I’m trying to hide I’ve got things but nothing’s mine I have seen all the lies Cling to truth until I die Nothing left but still I try Nothing left but I keep Going, going Summertime but my mind feels like it is snowing Knowing there’s no escape from the world unfolding I just want a break but this rock still needs rolling I don’t want to take up too much So I’m going to get to the point I’m making I’ve been torn apart, I have seen my life breaking Put it back together with a bit of glue One thought kept me going and that thought was you I don’t want to only get you in my bed True romance instead Passion to my head I know you would never leave my texts on read I could truly love you til I’m dead I wish I believed that there was something more All we have is now but so much to explore Just stay home with you, I’ll never go on tour Just want to be with you, don’t even need a door When I’m with you there is no better feeling Like I’m walking upside down on the ceiling Might have took too many drugs, I took a few I don’t need help - all I need is you All I need is you, all I need is you All I need is you, all I need is you All I need is you, all I need is you All I need is you, all I need is Need is, need is, need is, need is, need is, need is All I need is you, all I need is you All I need is you, all I need is you All I need is you, all I need is Need is, need is, need is, need is, need is, need is All I need is you, all I need is All I need is you
6.
Unsafe 02:48
Didn't think I'd lose my mind I don't know if I'll be fine It will wear off, just give it time It's just drugs I'm not dying But I'm taking off Feels like I'm flying Just need to cut through the fog And take this higher I took things too far I can't deny it I don't know what I took I can only ride it now I can only ride it out This one just might take me to the grave Just might be ready for that anyway These drugs on the street are unsafe Can't know what it is that I take Only wanted a sense of belonging Felt so low, didn't want to be longing Took one bump then I'd wait for the calming Check my phone, it's anxiety calling Didn't think I'd lose my mind I don't know if I'll be fine It will wear off, just give it time It's just drugs I'm not dying But I'm feeling off See someone crying Just need to rest against the wall And get through the night I took things too far I can't deny it I don't know what I took I can only ride it now I can only ride it out
7.
Didn't Go 02:48
Looking back through all the time that we had It never lasted but I am grateful we made it through that And I feel like I’ve got something else that’s inside of me My heart still burns with passion though it has been asleep I got pills I gotta take To make it all go away I feel like I’m a new person every day I got bills I gotta pay Although they won’t go away I keep looking to the future Because life finds a way I didn't go even though you left when I needed you Bottled up your love and turned your back like I'm not bleeding too Life will get you down but I'm still here feeding Hope you come around before the regrets eat at you I know we can’t go back to when you wanted me Blurred vision from migraines made it hard to see Things I joked about came back and haunted me Took a while to know that you’re the only one for me Hope we haven’t seen things as best as they’re gonna be Don’t know if we’ve seen things the worst as they’re gonna be Probably could have left but I thought I would just wait and see Took a while but now I know that you’re the only one for me I didn't go even though you left when I needed you Bottled up your love and turned your back like I'm not bleeding too Life will get you down but I'm still here feeding Hope you come around before the regrets eat at you I didn't go even though you left when I needed you Bottled up your love and turned your back like I'm not bleeding too Life will get you down but I'm still here feeding Hope you come around before the regrets eat at you

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released October 31, 2023

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